Marathon training day 3…

4 mile tempo run today. I’m averaging about 10 minutes slower than where I want to be, but it is a whole lot better than where I was just three months ago. My stats for today were 4 miles @ 13:53 min/mil pace with 4:1 run:walk ratio. I have another run tomorrow before rest day on Saturday, with my long run planned for Sunday. Today was a slow morning day. I realized I am not getting enough sleep. I need to work on forcing myself to get at least a good 7 hrs in. I got up closer to 7 a.m. today, got dressed, made my coffee, prayer/journaling, and off to do my run. Meditation came after my run this time. I think this order works out better for me. The meditation helps my body relax after my run. The problem is I still felt like my mind went everywhere today, and I don’t even know on what. At the end of the day I was just tired! I feel anxious and yet at peace, weird combo I know. Oddly the anxiety makes me want to run all day. That’s all I want to do is run. Tired because of work and kids, and probably mostly because of lack of sleep honestly. I can go a good three days feeling high and mighty and then just crash. I am better now at finding my balance though, which comes with learning to identify the triggers that set me on a roller coaster of obligations and “to dos”. I saw a TED talk yesterday called The Power of the Fuck (or something like that). It was awesome! I learned that my Fucks consisted of things that take up my Time, Energy, and Money. How to declutter my mind by making lists of all my to dos and one by one eliminating them by allocating my fucks like a budget. Do only what I really want to take up my Time, Energy, and Money and cross out all the rest. Making a decision and sticking to it without feeling guilty. Giving fewer quality fucks without feeling guilty. Adopting the Not Sorry Method of 1) deciding what you don’t give a fuck about and 2) don’t give a fuck about those things. The answer to every overworked, overstressed, overburdened, mom is practice not giving a fuck and become good at creating a buck budget! Clearly I need more practice! I need sleep…